Day 45: Why?

I realised earlier when I posted, I forgot to say: HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE <3 There's some love for you all. You're all amazing, don't ever change <33 I love you all just the way you are :')

Earlier, Ayesha asked me a really good question. It was such a simple question, but one that I had never really thought about before.
She asked me, why do I write?
It started to make me wonder, why on earth do I write? Why do I get on my own nerves when I haven't written my daily target for each day? Why did I choose to take part in NaNoWriMo last year, when I had always had a passion and the imagination for writing, but hadn't for quite a few years? Why do I want to take part in WriYe this year? So many whys, and it really made me think about what my answers are to these questions.

So, what are my reasons for wanting to write in the first place?
First off, I enjoy it. Simple and to the point answer, but what's the point of doing something if you don't enjoy? Life is too short. However, I really enjoy writing.
Secondly - For me, writing is all about escapism, and right from when I was younger, it always has been. I was bullied as a child, so writing was my way of getting out my own life, and entering someone else's. My own life and my own thoughts and feelings and problems don't matter when I'm writing - I can just zone out into my own imagination, and into someone else's thoughts and feelings and problems ;) Isn't the imagination a wonderful thing?
Thirdly (yes, this is turning into an essay :P) - I love words. This sounds odd, I know, but a lot of my friends will think I'm odd because I say that certain words or phrases are beautiful. I like finding poetry within words, which is why Dylan Thomas is my favourite author - his writing is poetic and it is beautiful and he is my inspiration. I love that. Words are amazing, aren't they?

This is going to be a long blog post... just a warning :P

So, why did I choose to take part in NaNoWriMo last year?
Main reason - other people were talking about it, and it sounded like a good idea. A lot of people I knew on boolprop were going to be taking part, and when I was wavering about whether I should or shouldn't, they persuaded me too - and I'm so glad they did. I never realised that I'd lost my passion for writing until I took part - and bam, the passion came back. NaNo was in no way easy - I mean, come on, 50,000 words in a month - mental xD But I found my love for writing again, and realised that that's part of who I am. So, thanks NaNo :D

Last questions of why I do this. Why do I get so annoyed at myself for not completing my target each day and why did I choose to take part in WriYe?
For getting annoyed at myself - well, my New Year's resolution was to write something everyday. I broke that resolution on the first of January xD But the thing is, I know that I'll never reach my target if I don't push myself and keep writing. Some days, I won't feel like it. Sometimes I'll just want to play the sims instead, or chat to amazing people - and thats fine. I just need to get stuff done in order to reach my goal.
And I chose to do WriYe, mainly because Heather was taking part. I knew that after NaNo, I wanted to keep writing, and Heather mentioned WriYe to me, so I thought why not. I know that her and Ayesha keep telling me that my target is too low, but meh, I don't care ;) I hope that after writing for a year, I still have the passion and love for it. And who knows, maybe I'll get something published one day xD


I asked Ayesha in return why she wrote, and it's funny how people's reasons are different, but somehow, they link in with your own.